i used to be a great, okay i wouldnt say great, but pretty much of a good daughter, in fact, i still am.

so what if my studies are average? at least im filial to you both n have not been quarreling w any of you over my freedom n stuff. but since you said that about me, i'm gonna grant your wish, you want me to be good in my studies, i definitely can, but i tell you what, you're gonna see a total different me next year, you fucking wont see me at home on weekends night, you want me t study hard, i will play harder. t be honest, i love to club, i love to stay out late, i love to stay overnight in chalets, i love to ton with my classmates/friends, but because I THOUGHT YOU CARED, because I THOUGHT YOU WANTED TO SEE ME AT HOME, n because I HAD TO LISTENED N RESPECT IT WHEN YOU SAID NO, i decided that i'll not do any of those unless its some special occasions. im treating this fucking place as a fucking hotel, so what if im not good in my studies like honestly, i dont see any bad point in not getting good results other than getting mock by your fucking colleagues, you ppl knw how fake n disgusting they are. although im quite affected by what others thinks about me, but i tell you smth, i am/was NEVER EVER affected by whatever those fucking hypocrite thinks about me, what comparing me n their daughters? so what if they're sooooo smart like 7 As? she's so fugly, i mean, let's not say about studies, try comparing me n her. _|_

okay not that im like fucking chio or looking down on her or what, okay maybe i'm looking down on her looks, but comeon, YOU PPL FUCKING MOCK ME ON MY STUDIES FIRST. WATCH OUT. im always revengeful, try me.

and please, please, i beg of you, stop, promising me that you're gna bring me to where where where, im sick and tired of all your fucking promises, you ppl always breaks them, you wait till im 18 n when i start to work, i'll fly everywhr myself. trust me. i had alot of places t go this hols, i could've flew t sydney w bella n th rest, could've go t shanghai w aileen n family, could've went t beijing w granny n aunty wendy, BUT becuz i dont wna leave th 2 of you at home becuz you used to tell me you miss me when i dont stay at bishan, and becuz of th fact that you PROMISED a hk&macau trip in feb,(which now turns out t only a MAYBE MALACCA TRIP) i decided not t go w th rest. now youre promising a bangkok trip in march, i'll see if you fucking bring me thr in march, you dont promise me a shanghai trip in august too please, if youre not gna keep those promises, dont even give me fake hope, it's even worse than getting stabbed a million times in my heart.