"I'd be lying if i told you losing you was something i could handle."

every single thing i'm doing now reminds me of you, reminds me of th times when i whined t you abt every single thing, frm th lamest t stupidest things. And you'll be cheering me up no matter what. I rmb th times when you said, you'll die without me speaking t you, i knew tht was a lie, but dear you, i was serious abt you therefore i was stupid and naive t actually believe you. I miss th times when you tell me t study & i will rlly do so, t stop skipping sch, t stop sleeping in lesson, t listen t my parents and go home early and tht you love me.

I miss all your "good morning dearest" texts, i miss waking up at 530 juz t reply your text, thou it was rlly tiring t do so every single day but it was heartwarming. really. I rmb th first day when i did tht, you were so shock and happy. All fridays seems so meaningless now. I miss waking up on fridays smiling t myself, jumping in class telling th whole world tht, my boy's booking out tday and i can't wait t see him. fridays are th best becuz i get t see you. But now, fridays, are th saddest, and worse day of everyweek. I swear.

DS, i rlly miss you.